Introspections - Artistic Project
Introspections
A whole year's work - and a fifth of life.
For me, art is a deeply personal outlet. I tend to overthink and struggle with anxiety, shaped by significant, almost traumatic experiences. This affects my emotions, perspective, and relationships—what I call neurosis. I see it as extreme introspection, a kind of madness filled with anxiety, mental overload, and lasting inner turmoil.
Through my art, I tried to express this abstract struggle visually.
Première Névrose
(First Neurosis) - October 2024
This first work features twenty-five photos of me taken at home, against a meticulously chosen background. The idea was to be as authentic as possible: I wanted to portray a guy who was simply at home on his own, going over the same things in his brain for days and weeks on end, without finding any answers to his questions... Who was going a bit mad, in a way.
I wanted to tell a sort of true story, with little fiction. In the top left-hand corner, we start with a state of reflection, then anger, then simple sadness, and finally denial. The character feels uncomfortable and takes off his jumper, starts to lose himself in his head, goes into a trance-like, almost spiritual state, then resigns himself and finally falls under the blows of his First Neurosis.
CATACLYSME
(CATACLYSM) - December 2024
This second work remains in the same vein as the first; here, the idea is to represent a deep, internal feeling. The photos were taken by me of relatives and then digitally retouched. The idea is still to be authentic: three people, spontaneous shots, each with their own way of being and their own personal experience of neurosis and introspection.
On the left, Le Déni (Denial), an allegory of the social façade used to hide a buried but very real malaise. In the centre, L'Agonie (Agony), symbolising the decay of a gnawed personality, with almost no way out. On the right, La Tribulation (The Tribulation), an allusion to the search for one's identity and the loss of bearings that comes with life's trials. Each person experiences the upheaval in his or her own way, in an absolute reflection that has the effect of a CATACLYSM.This second work presents a diversity of feelings, and draws its inspiration from contemporary works (Arnulf Rainer, Francis Bacon...). Subsequent works will employ other techniques, exploring human consciousness and psychosis in even greater depth.
Suicide
February 2025
The title could stand on its own. This work is called Suicide, and it is the summit of the rock of despair from which the human being suffers, and the darkest creation for this project.Medicines are arranged in threes on 20x20cm tiles of deep black - which alone reflects the dramatic nature of the work. At first glance, the variety of colours and shapes of the medicines may seem amusing, almost childlike. The drugs are arranged in threes, visually balanced and complementary, reinforcing the minimalist, graceful aspect of the work. Then it all becomes clear: sometimes eaten like confectionery - but far from it - the pills are a formidable weapon against any kind of psychosis or neurosis.
By adding them up, whatever their nature or individual dangerousness, they become a tool to put an end to everything. Suicide comes at the end, as the logical and appalling result of absolute despair. Aligned horizontally and intended to be viewed from left to right, the tiles form a chronological frieze. The work also stands out for its dual meaning; depending on the viewer's state of mind, it can be seen as an ode to healing. A double meaning that tends to remain characteristic of this artistic project... Far from art standards, Suicide takes its inspiration from Raphaël Dalla Porta's photos of human organs on a black background, Damien Hirtz's shelves of medicines, and the General Idea collective's Placebo. There was the Première Névrose (First Neurosis), the CATACLYSME (CATACLYSM) and then the Suicide. Having got down on one knee, it's now time to get back up and explore clearer ideas, while continuing to delve into deeper and deeper introspection.