SERMUN vv. I: Continue.

SERMUN vv. I: Continue.

They say “things come in threes”

I wish they hadn’t said that.

In blood and name,

a path is caved in ancestry.

Am I, Harry to continue this tree?

Forsee, I need a degree to turn to

I yearn for a me that is not

Want what is not

Be who I’m not.

This armour, heavy

It’s weight, alive on me. Is me

I am it and inside of it.

No pause for concern. No contemp(t)-

plation. Too much, now.

Deep is this line, this bloodline.

A thread, this thread, threading us together,

for without it we’d surely be apart.

I have contempt for you. I hate you.

At times, yes. At times, no. At times,

I just don’t think so.

Crest, crestens beam.

Routinely, I navigate this stream.

Set forth, taking me. Breaking me still.

Bruised, from word more than fist.

From verbal jab than knife-puncture.

From authority unjustly wrathed,

than deserved tender.

In name I have, is it nature too?

Am I another you you?

Is me me, me?

Will I repeat, weep, hurt and forseek?

Will I die

Alice

Size?

Tubed up, leaning on machining for life.

Leaning on others. Pushing them,

prodding for productivity.

Jesting. Besting. Thinking of other.

Will I miss this? Will I miss everything?

Will I stare unto reflection seeing an amalgam

of three. Of him, you and me. This isn’t me.

Will I be scared of myself (as I am now)?

Continue a path to this cenotaph.

Inevitable doom.

Early, cut-short. Regressed and stagnant.

Staying, not exploring. Not mooring, delaying.

Avoiding. 

Tackling and standing comes quicker now.

I am not filled with regret, just yet.

Its buds do blossom though. A climb up

to fall down. To end. To no more.

To not seeing you again. It again.

All my problems again. Easy jump. Easy choice,

nothing to do. Or to be.

Yet it hurt to try, it hurt to mind.

Mind if I stay, actually? 

[DIGITAL ARTWORK, 2024]

‘Poem typeset with outlined Red beams.’

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